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(no subject) [Apr. 30th, 2004|09:58 am]
Harry James Potter
[mood |apatheticapathetic]

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...So I went drinking.

...So I got drunk.

...So I did things with Ginny.

Nobody even reprimanded me. Lupin came in, sat down and had a bit of a heart to heart. Ron only tried to claw out his eyes when he found out who I was with. ...I haven't talked to Hermione, but knowing how preoccupied she is, I have a feeling she'll hardly notice.

It was nice though. At the time, when I was sort of hazy, before I threw up all over Ginny. It was like...this huge weight had been lifted off of my chest, and I could finally breathe. My scar didn't even hurt. I just felt really...relaxed. I mean, I still taste shotty, but at least I had that moment.

Bloody hell. I can see it now. Happiest Moment in Young Potter's Life: Getting Smashed in Seedy Pub.

...Might just go back. Just to see how much I can take...get some relief.
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[Private: Ginny]
...I'm sorry about the other night. How would you like a...raincheck?

I'll meet you in the front hall at midnight.
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Missed Herbology again today...Slept in a bit too late. Did anyone Sprout notice?
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(no subject) [Apr. 2nd, 2004|05:30 pm]
Harry James Potter
[mood |pessimisticpessimistic]

I'm tired.

Who wants to drinking?
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Spring Hols [Mar. 6th, 2004|01:25 pm]
Harry James Potter
[mood |goodgood]

So who's staying? Besides, myself, of course. Hermione? Ron?

[Private: Blaise]
...Have you been hearing anything funny lately? About...him. Allegiances and all that.
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[Private: Hermione]
DA needs to have a meeting. And I'd like to talk to you. Could you pull it together, again?
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Gryffindor Quidditch team -- meet me on the pitch tonight at 8. ALL members. We've got a lot of work to do if we're going to win the house cup.
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(no subject) [Feb. 13th, 2004|05:34 pm]
Harry James Potter
[mood |amusedamused]

Valentines Day. I don't really see the point. It's not like in muggle schools were we have little cardboard shoe boxes to fill with construction paper valentines. Especially in 7th year. But hey, any excuse to see Ron making a fool of himself for a girl. *grins*

[Private: Hermione]
Hi Mione...are you free tomorrow night? I've got...well, are you free?
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[Private]
No, I realize that I probably shouldn't even look at her during Valentines Day, and yet I'm going to make her dinner...the boys have already told me that I've got the room for the night...Not that I plan to do anything. But privacy...Merlin knows what Ron is up to anyway.

But I am.
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Feb. 8, 1998 [Feb. 8th, 2004|01:23 pm]
Harry James Potter
[mood |stressedstressed]

Back To Business.

[Private: Gryffindor Quidditch Team]
Alright, you lot. You've had quite a nice vacation, but now it's back to work. We've got Slytherin at the beginning of April, and at the end, Ravenclaw. Now, I don't want us skimpy by with small scores -- we've got to pull our scores up if we're shooting for the House Cup this year. Which, I assume, everyone is. Now, I want to see everyone tonight on the pitch. I also need all players to tell me nights that they are free for practice, so I can sign the feild for us. Got it?
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Nice game yesterday Ravenclaw.

[Private: Hermione Granger]
Transfiguration is going to drive me into the ground unless you help me. Please, Mione, I need your help. There will, of course, be incentives. Such as a huge bowl of your favorite...yellow rice. *Cheeky grin*

Any new leads on Crookshanks?
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[Private]
The scar's hurting worse these days...Dunno if that means he's planning something, or what. Can't waste time anymore though. I've got to focus on the tasks at hand...And stop wondering what Hermione is up to. I've got to talk to her...
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(no subject) [Jan. 15th, 2004|08:05 pm]
Harry James Potter
[mood |okayokay]

[Private]
It's going to be alright, in any case. No...things are not alright now, but they're never going to be that bad again. I made her that promise...not that I told her, but I promised I would never let her hurt like that on account of me. I...I was out of control...Can't even remember all I said, but I know it was something I'd regret.

She'll be alright. I know she will. She's stronger then I am, and she's smarter then I am, and she's...Cor, she's Hermione. Does that make her exceptional...or still breakable?

...I don't have any of the answers anymore.
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[Private: Hermione]
I love you. I love you. I love you.
Hermione, I was thinking about a few things. Maybe...it would be best, if you stayed away from Bastian....and maybe Snape. As in...staying away from extra credit. I worry that...things might get out of hand again...And I don't think I could deal with that. I'll talk to you later.
I love you, Hermione.
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Does anyone know the Charms homework? I slept through had to catch up on something during class. I'd appreciate if you could just let me know what it is. Thank you.
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Jan. 8, 1998 [Jan. 8th, 2004|01:08 pm]
Harry James Potter
[mood |calmcalm]

[Private]
Resolutions Resolution

1. Make everyday count. ...I guess that means changing this mindset. Part of me realizes that this could be it. Cor, that sounds worse when I write it out. But I won't give up, and I won't stop fighting. Ever. It's times like this when I wish I could talk to Sirius...or dad. But that's the last time I say that. Life is too short for that -- I've got Hermione, I've got friends, I've got support. If he is coming for me, then I doubt anything will stand in his way. ...I'll be ready though. Somehow.

2. Stop thinking about Sirius, and mum, and dad.

2. Tell Hermione what's going on.

2. Bloody up Malfoy.

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(no subject) [Jan. 6th, 2004|03:40 pm]
Harry James Potter
[Private]
...They're right. I can't pretend like I don't know what this means.

He's back.
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(no subject) [Jan. 2nd, 2004|12:47 pm]
Harry James Potter
[mood |blankblank]

[Private]
...I should have told him sooner. Now, three people are dead. Although, based on past experiences I don't know if anybody besides Dumbledore would believe me. Sure, Ron and Hermione...but I'm not telling them. They'll just do what they always do -- worry and ask me if I'm alright, like I'm made out of some precious porceline. I've been through the same things they have, and they don't seem to be so...screwed up. I can't even carry on a relationship for fear that something will happen and the girl I'm with will get murdered for being with me.

Sometimes I think about what it would've been like to be Ron. If we switched places and he had the scar. If his parents were murdered, if the only adult that really cared about him was murdered...if he was waiting to be killed too. That always makes me stop. Why would I ever want to think about Ron having to go through all this? Because I don't want to. It's sick, is what it is.

...it still hurts, though not as bad as it did on New Years. Cor, I can't even remember all that happened with Hermione. I just woke up, and felt something warm next to me and looked over, and there she was sleeping...and it was perfect. The way that her eyelashes formed half circles on her cheeks, and the line of her lips and the curve of her cheeks...and she was so smooth. And then we got up and everything was perfect. Nothing was awkward, nothing was wrong. Then...we came downstairs, and got the news.

I think this is going to be the end.

I don't think he's going to stop at Hogsmeade.

...I don't know if I'm going to make it this time.

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Happy New Year.
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new years is coming... [Dec. 30th, 2003|10:33 am]
Harry James Potter
[mood |confusedconfused]

[Private]

I don't know if I can do it. The ball drops and I'm supposed to break it off with her, but a part of me keeps reminding myself how right it is with her...how perfect. She's perfect...not in the sense that she's flawless, but in the sense that she's perfect for -me-. I don't want to call it off, I don't want to stop...she's beautiful and intelligent and tastes good and is so...Hermione. But I have to. If something happens this year, like its bound to happen, I can't be attached to her. Not like that. If something were to happen to her...I wouldn't be able to live. I wouldn't have a reason to fight anymore. I'd fall apart at the seams, because she's what keeps me together. Not Ron, not Dumbledore, not Remus...Hermione. It's always Hermione.
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[Private; Hermione]
I think we should talk...about...New Years. Meet me in my dorm at midnight.

I love you.
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There's nothing like the holidays.
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